DAY 12

“I am willing to change, I am willing to change, I am willing to change.”

This morning I am reminded of a Louise Hay affirmation that I used many years ago. I believe that if I’m unwilling to change, nothing will change.

If I am unwilling to change my thinking, my life won’t change.

If I am unwilling to change my habits, things will continue on the way they always have.

The first step for me is always to become willing to change…everything always comes after.

What is interesting to me is that my willingness wavers. I go back and forth between being willing to being skeptical and doubtful that this recovery thing is for me, therefore becoming unwilling and closed off to the process.

Today, I am willing to change.

Today, I don’t need to know what to do, I just need to show up and follow the guidance.

The silly things that my sponsor and people in 12 step meetings say actually help me to be more willing: Keep It Simple. Easy Does It. One Day At A Time.

When it feels simple and easy and something I can do today, I am more willing to do it. If I think about having to do this work forever, I get overwhelmed and am more likely to become closed off because I can’t see how it’s ever going to work. I don’t need to.

I just need to be honest, open and willing to change today and the rest will be shown to me at the right time.